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Monday, November 10th, 2008
5:52 pm
Corch's meme, fill mine out, not Matt's, mine is better!
01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) Favorite band to listen to when you're mad?
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favourite and least favourite food?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
Sunday, October 19th, 2008
3:19 am
And while I'm at it...
..Suze DeMarchi is STILL the hottest rock chick ever!!

Also, they freaking toured last January!! Goddamit!!!
2:52 am
Things you do at 3am
..include nostalgically listening to old 80's/90s hard rock..

Case in point..

Live your life like it's a coma
So won't you tell me why we'd wanna
With all the reasons you give
It's kinda hard to believe
But who am I to tell you that I've seen
Any reason why you should stay
Maybe we'd be better off without you anyway
You got a one way ticket
On your last chance ride
Gotta one way ticket
To your suicide
Gotta one way ticket
An there's no way out alive
An all this crass communication
That has left you in the cold
Isn't much for consolation
When you feel so weak and old
But is home is where the heart is
Then there's stories to be told
No you don't need a doctor
No one else can heal your soul
Got your mind in submission
Got your life on the line
But nobody pulled the trigger
They just stepped aside
They be down by the water
While you watch 'em waving goodbye
They be callin' in the morning
They be hangin' on the phone
They be waiting for an answer
When you know nobody's home
And when the bell's stopped ringing
It was nobody's fault but your own
There were always ample warnings
There were always subtle signs
And you would have seen it comin'
But we gave you too much time
And when you said that no one's listening
Why'd your best friend drop a dime
Sometimes we get so tired of waiting
For a way to spend our time
And it's so easy to be social
It's so easy to be cool
Yeah it's easy to be hungry
When you ain't got shit to lose
And I wish that I could help you
With what you hope to find
But I'm still out here waiting
Watching reruns of my life
When you reach the point of breaking
Know it's gonna take some time
To heal the broken memories
That another man would need
Just to survive

Axl would still kick anyone's ass.
Saturday, October 4th, 2008
9:46 am
On the horizon... something awesome...
Eliza Dushku + Joss Wheedon = Awesome.

Friday, September 12th, 2008
5:32 pm
Been a long time since I rock and rolled!
Been a while since I posted anything and I don't have a whole lot to say right now other than life is good.

So instead here's something that makes me smile when I watch it. I'm a feelgood schmuck sometimes I know...

Friday, May 9th, 2008
5:00 pm
Voice from the Outer
Happy Birthday Ally. Hope you had a top day.
Saturday, October 6th, 2007
1:48 pm
The Greatest Review of all Time

Seriously, this guy is so gold its platinum.
Sunday, September 16th, 2007
11:48 pm
There's Something About Spring...
It always seems to bring about change for me. This year has been no different, and they've been some mighty changes too I assure you.

First off I've withdrawn from university for this semester. I originally planned to drop it down to part-time, but decided that the sheer hectic pace of the month meant I had to pull the pin for the moment. That's all nice and organised and now it's safely put on the shelf till next year.

I've got a new job, my old one was starting to really shit me. I will start being a public servant again (and on ye olde gravy train) as of the 27th, looking forward to that one I can assure you. No more late night shifts, I may actually be able to do things in my spare time now.

We're moving house, the old place is being sold up from under us and we've found a nice place in Isabella Plains that will suit. We're making the big move next weekend, so if anyone happens to have some spare time on their hands (especially someone with some kind of truck driving capacity) then you're most welcome to assist in the latest relocation of Kamlah.

Finally, we bought a car this weekend. It's a 2005 Pulsar ST. The previous owner went out of their way to bling it up, so it looks pretty nice. It is however, a complete show-pony with nothing to back it up. I'm ok with this, sometimes style over substance is how I roll. :)

Everything else is peachy, in fact really I'm enjoying this newest little phase immensely. Should be a solid little change for the better.
Thursday, July 12th, 2007
9:51 pm

Click play and watch a fat guy from Brazil own the worlds best guitarists.

Current Mood: impressed
Monday, July 2nd, 2007
12:14 pm
Through To The Next Round
Uni results came out today, and it seems I have passed everything. Only just on the Chinese front, but now that I have a semester behind me and have seen what I need to do, and how to do it, I think I'm ready to really take it on from here.

To Gareth and Carmo and Hamish, my apologies for not making it out to see you guys on Sunday, but I took Gareth's advice on Friday night and the resulting big weekend had me in no state to go anywhere come Sunday morning. Was a cracker of a weekend, Brian's Birthday was a great little bash and I was glad to catch up with everyone, and Phil's housewarming was a surprise packet event, met some new cool people and had a great time.

And now all I have to do is watch Transformers this coming weekend, everyone loves it it seems, so I'm taking the boy out and we shall revel in some giant robot action.

Current Mood: accomplished
Friday, June 15th, 2007
2:48 pm
Jintian de tianqi bu hao
Well the first of my three exams is now out of the way. Twas Politics, and I feel I did well enough to ensure I'm not summarily drummed out of the place by a stern looking tutor. I also got my philosophy essay back for which I apparently earned a distinction. Pleasing to know I have retained my ability to bullshit at length with complexity.

On the way home from said exam I managed to find myself at a loose end in Woden with $200 floating around in my wallet. It was talking trash about all your mum's so I was forced to spend it to teach it what's what. The EB sale has netted me a King of Fighters game and a Burnout game, highly impulse buys but that's what today was about. Secondly I finally made good on my earlier threats and stopped in at Games Workshop. (I had actually attempted to do this previously once but it was 4pm and the place was chockers with school kids. The raw stench of stale body odour combined with a gnawing panic someone I knew might actually see me in there made me flee in terror.)

The quite large nerd inside the place was your typical Games Workshop fanboy, desperate to be my new best friend and talk for hours about how a Wood Elf Forest Dragon has a Strength of 6 and Toughness of 7. I managed to throw him by asking how they got away with so blatantly copying World of Warcraft. The look of horror and disbelief in his beady eyes suggested that were he capable he would strike me dead on the spot. Luckily he no longer wished to speak to me either, so I could make my purchase of the new rulebook and escape.

And now back to the wonderful world of Chinese, where communism is good and you can never have enough q's and x's in words.

Current Mood: calm
Sunday, May 27th, 2007
1:05 am
Ave Requiem
Firstly, a massive thanks to all you fabulous people who attended my birthday drinks/festivities. I had a monstrously fun time, and it was thanks to all of you. (I had planned a quiet weekend :p)

Secondly, holy sweet mother of god! I just watched the final five episodes of season 3 of Lost. I had been worried about the show mid-season, unsure of where exactly it was heading. The last 5 made it all incredibly worth it. From exciting to touching they had a bit of everything. Of course I am now also confused as all hell as to what is going on, but hell, that's Lost.

Current Mood: cheerful
Thursday, May 24th, 2007
9:16 pm
Demons Of Addiction Dance For Me
A while back I was heavily into some stuff that I don't admit to lightly. Obviously I have never told my son about this, I don't think he would understand to be honest, not many people do. Escapism is a powerful force, and while friends may reject you over it, its power compels you regardless.

And I want to do it again.

I've missed it more than I've been willing to admit and this scares me, since realistically I'm a grown adult in charge of his own destiny. To know that something has me addicted to it, and I can't and don't want to stop is a humiliating feeling. The joy though, the social nature, the deep thoughts, the crazy conversations and plottings, they're things that I can't deny I enjoyed and want to enjoy again.

So I will. I'm throwing caution to the wind and I'm getting back in. I hope you will all come to understand, but if not, I am unrepentant. Too long I have given up my own pleasures for others, and regardless of the cost I'm going to do it.

I'm going to Games Workshop.

I'm buying a Skaven Army.

I just hope you can all understand and forgive me.

Current Mood: determined
Sunday, May 20th, 2007
1:09 am
Hell it's about damn time.
"Fire it up."
"Let's Burn."
"Carrier has arrived."
"Reynor here."
"This is Jimmy."
"Battlecruiser reporting."
"My life for Aiur."
"Spawn more Overlords."


Thursday, May 10th, 2007
9:01 pm
A Serious Post
A fair while ago now I found myself at an airport, bored, waiting to catch a plane. There was a bookstore there and I figured I'd buy something to read on the flight. I'm occasionally taken by True Crime books, and found myself buying a book on the British Police Force's Child Abuse Unit. I was a little hesitant since the subject matter seemed extremely nasty, but there was nothing else so I went for it.

I never finished it, in fact I think I could only manage about a third of it before some of the scenarios involving sex crimes just made me put it down. It was bloody harrowing and I didn't want to consider such things.

Fast forward to last year. A guy who I worked with chats to me and in the course of the conversation my son comes up. The guy mentions he babysit's his friends boys and he's taking them to the movies that weekend, would I and my son like to go. For some reason it struck me as a little weird, and I made an excuse and never went. Over the next six months or so the guy would occasionally mention to me things he was doing and my son and I were always welcome to join him. Again it always seemed a little strange and I couldn't put my finger on why, but I always said no.

He stopped working with me and I forgot all about it.

Today I found the following on news.com.au:

A MALE nanny allegedly caught with thousands of pornographic images of children also performed an act of indecency in front of a 12-year-old boy, a Canberra court was told today.

####################, 21, was arrested at his Civic apartment yesterday after police allegedly found more than 50,000 images of child pornography and video files stored on his computers.

He appeared in ACT Magistrates Court today on two charges of possessing child pornography and committing an act of indecency in the presence of a child.

The court was told police searched Mr ########'s apartment as part of an investigation into claims the self-employed childcare worker committed an act of indecency in front of a 12-year-old boy in July 2006.

Mr ######### was not required to enter a plea and made no application for bail.

Magistrate ############# remanded him in custody until May 24.

I have never wanted to really really seriously harm someone until today.

I'm just very grateful it appears my instincts are good. The book actually gave some interesting pointers on things to watch out for, and I suspect that subconsciously I was remembering those when this creep was talking to me about hanging out with my son.
Tuesday, March 20th, 2007
10:24 pm
Renshi Nin Hao Gaoxing
Another post, kind of uncharacteristically chatty on here of late. I'm pretty sure it's because my routine lately has meant I have seen almost no-one, Lara included, since I get home after she's gone to bed and she's going as I'm getting up. Contact with friends is at the moment few and far between as well.

So really I guess I'm a bit lonely.

Not depressive lonely, just kind of wishing I had more time to do things and see people.

Uni is certainly challenging me more than I'm used to, years of drudge jobs and pointless busy work suddenly brushed aside for genuinely interesting and difficult problems and I'm really enjoying it, but the toll on my personal time at the moment is taking some adjusting. I played the computer for an hour on the weekend, that was all the time I've had spare for the last fortnight.

Still this is something I think is worth doing, so I'm just going to have to keep adjusting. I will say however, I'm thinking of having a beer on Friday night, maybe even a Phoenix Beer... or perhaps a King O's beer...

Anyone interested? </guilttrip>

Current Mood: bored
Tuesday, March 6th, 2007
1:07 am
Staring At Stars And Other Lullabyes
I've been in a philosophical mood of late. My new schedule of work and uni has left me with a regular hour at around 1 of the am where I am unwinding from work before going to bed and there isn't any distraction from abstract thought. I've always enjoyed those quiet times, alone with my mental ambiguities, thinking about "ifs". For some reason I need them to counteract the mundane world and all its' plastique.

Right now I'm sort of wandering between a few trains of thought and I'm feeling indulgent enough to record them for my own posterity.

Firstly is last night's experience. A few times in my life I have found myself acutely aware of my surroundings and last night, out the back, cigarette in hand was one of those times. Basically it was a full moon, but completely overcast, resulting in a strange lighting effect where everything I saw was quite clear, but in a monotone grey, except the singular orange light of my cigarette. I found it quite profound, but for no explainable reason, just that single contrast of colour in a grey landscape.

The other is a little more practical, but just as abstract. A long time ago I remember a good friend of mine who's father had died some years before saying to me, in probably the most heartfelt expression I have ever heard, "I miss my dad." It was a rare moment of open anguish, something you don't often see and something I'm honestly privileged to have been there for, because really, anyone can be a friend in a time of celebration, it's when things aren't so good that real friends emerge.

But tonight I recalled this moment, out of the blue, and I thought to myself, "I wish I missed mine." I'm not upset about anything regarding my father, I just found this unbidden thought quite... curious. I don't miss him. I don't dislike his company, but I'm in no hurry to seek it out either. I have no idea what this means in regards to me as a person, other than perhaps I over analyse myself too much. That or I'm a stone cold killer at heart. Actually no I love my mum so that's not it either.

The only other thing to report is that Patrick asked a girl (Stephanie)out to the school dance. She said no, but only as she wasn't going apparently. He described her as "shy and cute". He went to the dance regardless, he certainly isn't shy himself. I am so proud. :)

Current Mood: contemplative
Monday, February 12th, 2007
1:52 pm
Falling Seems So Simple From Here
I expected a lot of different emotions on my first day at Uni, excitement, maybe some nerves, some self-congratulatory back-patting even. I wasn't expecting panic. I arrived at Union Square, chock full of 18 year olds huddled together in flocks of social strata, and realised suddenly just how little I have in common with these people. I mean sure, I may get to know some of them, may be friends with them, but at that moment at that place my brain imploded and I had to sit down and try to calm my suddenly shattered sense of self-assuredness.

I got through it, after a couple of stiff cigarettes and a visual confirmation of a place I was actually supposed to line up. During that moment though, I seriously considered just walking back out of there, the only thing holding me in place an iron-willed determination to not let something that kids who hadn't even realised dressing the same as everyone else makes you look stupid beat me at.

All in all it was a pretty short day after that. I attended a few introductory seminars and then decided to head home. The big activity for the day was the infamous university pub crawl, and the desire to be drunk creepy older guy was not with me so I headed home. I'm a little more sure at least now of the academic process, how to enroll in tutorials and lectures etc, so on that front I think I'm set. It's all about the future now, and I'm ready enough for it, I just may take a little longer to adjust than I first anticipated :)

Current Mood: contemplative
Thursday, January 18th, 2007
11:25 pm
Golden Moments in Time
You have received an offer to:

2CSP 131024 Bachelor of Arts/Bachelor of Asian Studies - full or part time at Australian National University

Didn't make it for International Relations, despite my fairly good marks. I am not even remotely disappointed by this. In is in as far as I'm concerned and it's looking good from here on. The interesting thing is this degree is 4 years rather than 3 and comprises an Asian Language compulsory component. After some thought and checking out of stuff today I've narrowed it down to either Chinese or Korean, but I'm leaning towards Chinese. (Ni Hao!)

What I hadn't quite grasped previously to this is a split degree like this gives me two complete diplomas at the end, so it's cramming stuff in fairly tightly over that time frame, but I like the idea of having 2 degrees. I realise some of you are going "duh" at this point, but hey I've never been before so it took me by surprise when I realised it.

Another plus is the job prospects at the end of it are pretty much identical to, if not more diverse than International Relations anyway. Now of course I just need to actually go and do well.

The official first day of classes is February 19, so now I'm just hanging out for it all to start!

Current Mood: accomplished
Sunday, December 24th, 2006
9:30 pm
It's that time again.
You know I'm going to do it. No matter how many Bah Humbugs you throw. You may as well just accept it now. Ready? Don't care if your not, here it comes...

Merry Christmas everyone.

Current Mood: cheerful
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